After 90 days of my quirky, obsessive 365 photography project, it is only me to check in and reflect. While I expected this project would expand my skills as a photographer and challenge my creativity, I'm astounded by its impact to my everyday existence. This project has reinforced a motto that has been repeated by several influences in my life, "Be Present". It has enabled a natural thankfulness in my every day. It has forced an appreciation for the rollercoaster of life, with the highs, the lows, the excitement, the mundane...and everything in between.
On Day 1, I begun. With the influence of several respected photographers, I made a bold decision to begin this project despite my practical reservations. Just a year or so ago, I embarked on a Mom's study called Crazy Busy. I had spent over a year figuring how to De-Busy my life. But here I stood a working Mom of a 2 and 5 year old, mom and dad both employed by a highly intense investment firm, dad away for reserves once a month and mom starting up a part time photography business....and I ask myself are you CRAZY!
I get off to a good start. This is fun, I capture change in the weather:
And some creative angles:
Then life starts to happen. Kids get sick:
Mom needs to travel for work:
And I begin to feel deflated. I wonder how I will ever keep up my creativity. I'm tired, I'm struggling to find the creativity and I even fear disappointing this little following of Facebook fanfare that I've somehow mustered.
Then one day, I get this card in the mail from my dear sister:
The words of encouragement only found from the deep love and respect of a sister. Inside were these words:
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are more powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves: Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. Its not just in some of us; its in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others" - Marianne Williamson, "A Return to Love"
This project is REAL Life.
Some days, we celebrate:
Some days, we mourn:
Some days, we cry:
Some days, we laugh:
Some days, we "wine":
Some days, we REALLY REALLY cry!
Some days, are fun:
Some, even super:
Others, quite boring:
But the reality is, its all in how we see our world. WE can see the dullness of rainy day or rest in the hope that a rainbow will follow.
As for me....I plan to enjoy the colorful moments of life. Each happy, sad, perfect and imperfect moment of them.
Happiness is indeed a choice!
And frankly, I....and YOU were born to shine! So BLOOM where you are planted friend!
Here's to another 200+ days of being awesome in 2016!